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Huma Khan opens up about living with depression

Huma Khan opens up about living with depression

"I am still fighting. Trying to find help, gulping down pills after pills so I can attain some peace,” wrote the model.
Updated 05 May, 2020

Pakistani model and actor, Huma Khan has opened up about her struggle with mental health issues.

Taking to Instagram to announce her break from social media, she revealed how a terrible heartbreak took a toll on her mental well-being, and became the reason she was unable to work for a year.

"I always thought depression and mental health as merely some words off dictionary. Then two years back it struck me, struck me so hard it nearly knocked me dead."

"Like an unforeseen problem that swept you off the hinges on life on an idle Tuesday. Two years back with a blow to my relationship and a broken heart on my sleeve, I drowned. I drowned in my sorrows. Unable to breathe, unable to clutch at life."

The supermodel spoke about how this left her feeling overwhelmed with confusion, and she lost friends along the way.

"I wanted it to end. The pain, the melancholia, the desperation to want things to be better again. I was unable to fathom what's happening around me."

"I lost my friends, this invisible cloak of darkness not only me but my family. Claustrophobia, sleeping paralysis, fatigue, shortness of breath, name it; they all came eating at me."

She also shared that this became the reason she was unable to work, and tried looking for comfort in all the wrong places.

"Due to this messed up life, I was unable to work for over a year. Days turned into nights and nights turned into days and I was all lost; I was that version of Huma who tried seeking refuge into such wrong paths and doing things that the mere thought of them send chills down my spine."

"I am still fighting. Trying to find help, gulping down pills after pills so I can just attain some peace. I am going to take a break from social media to find that peace, that silence that can save my soul and probably me as well."

With this, she encouraged people to speak up about their issues, knowing how the topic is still considered somewhat taboo in our society.

"Always remember that never be afraid to talk about depression or mental health. Seeking help is not a crime. We all need it and we all need courage to address this reality of life which has turned into a taboo in this country."

Khan concluded the note with a hopeful message, saying she would be resuming her career very soon.

"In shah Allah I will be working soon. In this tough time, pray for yourself and pray for me as well. Till we meet again."

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VIQUAR SYED May 05, 2020 03:08pm
Depression is real.
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M. Saeed May 05, 2020 03:17pm
If you lost friends and ended up in acute depression, just try getting a puppy of good breed and play with it. Indeed, you will find solace in it's true friendship, till you get normal and proceed.
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Solomon The King May 05, 2020 03:24pm
dont worry you have many others like you out there struggling even more, but fighting constantly against the forces of darkness, although they do not have a star status. I dont know if that makes any worse or good? Only thing that keeps one going is the belief, a belief that you would be walking strong and tall one day. Without belief it is very hard in this whirl. Also, consider it an experience, an experience of pain and suffering. We all experience that pain at different levels and in different intensity. Wish you a quick recovery.
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Dr Vikas Jamwal May 05, 2020 04:11pm
Stay strong
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M. Emad May 05, 2020 05:52pm
According to one estimate, around 50 million Pakistanis suffer from mental disorders ---- Depression, Substance and Alcohol Misuse, Schizophrenia, Bipolar Disorder and Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder.
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A. ALI May 05, 2020 07:46pm
What was her core issue?... and who is she ?...
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Millake May 06, 2020 01:10am
As someone who has suffered and whose daughter suffers from this disease. What has worked for me is to find some purpose in life. Try to look at the grand scheme of things. Try to take a day at a time and appreciate the little things that we take for granted like walking in sunshine. I would definitely shut down all meaningless social stimulus/noise like social media and connect with your inner self through self reflection, exercise, meditation, sprituality, prayers etc. and meaningful relationships. Hope this helps.
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Ahmed May 06, 2020 01:14am
That illness can strike anybody but it can also be cured. Acknowledging its existence is the first step towards a cure. Support from the family and friends is essential as is a positive approach towards life. Wishing her all the best and an early recovery.
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Krishna May 06, 2020 04:08am
Please do meditation and Yoga.It will calm your mind and makes you strong. All the best
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aliabbas May 06, 2020 08:32am
Yep thats my depressed face as well.
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Cris Dan May 06, 2020 08:53am
@Krishna yes meditation and power walks in morning.
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Dija May 06, 2020 09:53am
Yes living with depression is so tough....wish you all the very best...change in place might work!
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