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Model Mushk Kaleem opens up about experiencing severe body dysmorphia

Model Mushk Kaleem opens up about experiencing severe body dysmorphia

"I had started starving myself, not eating for 24 hours and more, I was abusing drugs, I was unhealthy."
12 Oct, 2020

Often while we look at people from a distance, we are unaware of the constant battles they are fighting within themselves.

On World Mental Health Day over the weekend, model Mushk Kaleem opens up about a time she was struggling to make peace with her looks, the scuffle crippling her well-being and distorting it both mentally as well as physically.

She posted snippets from her journey on Instagram, hoping those going through the same could be encouraged to accept themselves and live healthy.

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"2019, was probably the most rewarding year of my career, but when I look back and think about all that I went through last year, I realise that my mental health had completely taken a back seat," she opened up.

"I was a model, adapting to fame, success and accolades. Of course, everyone thought I was okay, living the dream. I knew then, that to complain about anything would be unthankful."

"I was hospitalised on my 25th birthday last year. I was almost 48 kilos and I was suffering from severe body dysmorphia. I would spend hours obsessing over my weight, about losing those few inches on my waist, about getting those perfect hips, or about just looking the part. I had started starving myself, not eating for 24 hours and more, I was abusing drugs, I was unhealthy," Mushk added.

"I was a 6 feet girl suffering from severe anorexia. I would occasionally blackout. I needed help. I think it had less to do with my field of work and more to do with how I was okay with being so self-destructive. I was comfortable with being unhappy. But this is a happy story, I promise."

"Now a year later, I’m a happier person. I’ve been clean for more than a year. I have found support and happiness in my family, friends, and my pets. I have set boundaries that I never let people cross. I decided that I could still be beautiful, no matter what number the weighing scale would say."

Kaleem also opened up about how going to therapy and putting herself first put her on the road to recovery.

"I tackled my issues head on, and at first it was scary and it aggravated my anxiety, but I’ve grown, and I’ve healed. It’s still an ongoing process of recovery that I’m on. But I’m glad I started somewhere. Our mental health impacts our thoughts, our actions and our lives. Here’s to taking care of our minds, our bodies, our souls."

Comments

Laila Oct 12, 2020 07:07pm
Our girls need severe and immediate science and fact based education on their bodies, healthy bodies and dieting and starving yourself isn't the way to counter overweight or getting in shape. There is such ignorance on these topics. Human biology must not be covered in schools anymore due to misguided sharam and haya. Drugs is bad. Starving yourself can lead to not only you dying but it can mess up your fertility and ability to have a baby. It can shut down your organs with serious and permanent damage. Don't harm your bodies.
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Laila Oct 13, 2020 03:14am
Our girls need severe and immediate science and fact based education on their bodies, healthy bodies and dieting and starving yourself isn't the way to counter overweight or getting in shape. There is such ignorance on these topics. Human biology must not be covered in schools anymore due to misguided sharam and haya. Drugs is bad. Starving yourself can lead to not only you dying but it can mess up your fertility and ability to have a baby. It can shut down your organs with serious and permanent damage. Don't harm your bodies
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