Angeline Malik ends 2025 with a heartfelt letter to her past self
Actor Angeline Malik is no stranger to challenges, having battled cancer and defeated it in just over a year, but that doesn’t mean she can’t miss her old self from before the gruelling process of treating the disease. Her closing message for 2025 was a love letter to the past.
The actor posted a message to her past self on Instagram, telling her she is missed and that giving her up wasn’t a choice but a necessity to survive.
Starting the letter with “Dear me,” the star told her old self she misses how “familiar” and “effortless“ the past felt in comparison to life after cancer. She wrote “I miss the body that hadn’t been marked by survival, the life that didn’t feel like it was always holding its breath, the innocence of not knowing how fast everything could be taken away.”
Malik told her old self, “I didn’t abandon you. You didn’t fade because you weren’t enough,” explaining that, “Living meant losing you, and that is a truth I still don’t know how to live with.”
The newly-minted jewellery designer said people tell her she’s “strong” like being strong was a choice she made and that they didn’t see the cost of that strength. “They don’t see how often I ache to be that curly haired carefree girl again,“ she wrote, adding, ”how I try to reach for her, only to realise I can’t fit back into the life or body that once felt like home.”
Malik said this new version of herself that she is “learning to live with” was born out of “fear”, “pain” and “the brutal necessity of survival”. Despite all this, she said, she carries her past self within her, “in my laughter, in my softness, in the parts of me that still dare to hope”. She told her past self, “I am walking forward with everything you gave me, with your love, your dreams, your courage [and] your heart.”
In closing, she said she misses her old self and promises to never forget her. She said she’ll “take it from here, slowly, imperfectly, honestly”.
Malik was declared cancer free by her doctors in 2025 and continues to share her journey of survival to raise awareness about the disease. She’s stepped back into the world of acting and taken up jewellery design after remission.
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